Connection Over Control: Ending Power Struggles with Your Kids

If you're raising a defiant child, you know the day-to-day struggle. Even amongst the best circumstances, motherhood can be purely exhausting . Ginny Luther is joining us today to tell us what conscious discipline is, how we need to show up for ourselves before we respond to our kids, and the many ways our children invite us to grow and learn from our continued missteps.

When Ginny's defiant child, Bart, tested her in ways she never imagined she began a journey of self-discovery which led her to becoming a  Conscious Discipline Master Instructor. Today, she's sharing her story and talking to us about her exceptional new book, Blue Star Grit:  A Mother’s Journey of Triumph and Tragedy Raising a Defiant Child into an Exceptional Leader.

(As always, these conversations are not for kiddos—make sure you've got your earbuds in or listen when your child-free)

RESOURCES, LINKS & QUOTES: 

“Discipline isn’t something we do to children. Discipline is something we help them to develop in themselves.” —Ginny Luther 

“Conscious discipline comes from understanding a brain model about how we develop regulation.”—Ginny Luther 

“When you manage yourself you can help manage your children.” —Ginny Luther

Learn More About Conscious Discipline here. 

⭐️🦋!!!!!Pre-Order Blue Star Grit here!!!!!! ⭐️🦋

Learn more about Ginny Luther and her impactful work here. 

Ginny’s Book List 

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Transcript

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Ryann Watkin: Welcome back to the raising wild hearts. Podcast I'm. Thrilled and honored and excited. Today we're gonna be talking about

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Ryann Watkin: One of my favorite topics which is discipline, conscious discipline, raising a strong willed child. And maybe some of you can relate to this, because I know some of you have strong willed children as do I, at least one out of the 3, the jury still out on the other. But I mean you know it. There's time yet.

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Ryann Watkin: And so I think it's really important, because one of the things that I always think about is the root of the word discipline, and I think that our culture is kind of trained, and it's inculturated to think that it's punishment or consequences. But the root of the word discipline is disciple, which means

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Ryann Watkin: to guide, to teach disciple is students. So you know I just. I think this is a beautiful way to talk about this topic with a beautiful human who has just written a book, and I just can't wait to tell you guys about it. And for her to tell you guys about it. So with no further ado.

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Ryann Watkin: Ginny Luther is a dynamic international speaker for parents and educational professionals.  She's a Conscious Discipline Master Instructor and She pulls her vast life experience, presenting with Charisma enthusiasm and compassion, her tremendous knowledge provides creative solutions to difficult issues, facing schools and families today.

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giving audiences the tools necessary to succeed

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Ryann Watkin: in semi retirement. Ginny maintains her focus to her local communities, using her expertise and commitment to empower adult child relationships. She uses conflict as an opportunity for growth during her enthusiastic workshops. Jenny also serves as a as a Consultant, a CBT. Life Coach.


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Ryann Watkin: parent, teacher, coach, and a support group leader for school districts, parents, communities, corporate organizations, associations, clubs, and summer camps.

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Ryann Watkin: She is also co-founder of Barts Blue Star nonprofit foundation, which supports funding opportunities for people on the front lines with children to receive conscious discipline, training, and coaching.

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I met Jenny at one of her workshops. She was so gracious to grace us with her presence at one of the home school co-ops that my daughters went to a couple of years ago, and I can say from first hand experience

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Ryann Watkin: it's an experience. It's a

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Ryann Watkin: you know. I just remember feeling so connected and so seen and heard. And that's what we're trying to do for our kids.

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Ryann Watkin: And so we. you know. I think of this like parent figure almost that is like I see you. I hear you, and you just know everything safe, and that's really how I felt, and I, you know, if if I could speak for the other moms in the session, I know that that's how they felt, too. And so it's with great honor and excitement that I welcome you to the podcast today, Jenny.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, thank you for having me on. I feel honored.

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Ryann Watkin: Yeah, thank you so much. So.

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Ryann Watkin: as I mentioned in the Intro. The way we think about discipline in our society is a little backwards, but some of us don't even know that it's backwards what is going on there?

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, most people do what they were taught.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: So if you were exposed as a child trying to express your distress, which is what we do through a motion motion, is the vehicle for us.

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really expressing our distress.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and we go to the people that soothe us, which is our parents. They've always been the soothers in our lives, and if you get punished for that.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: or more often, somebody in throws imposed guilt on you. Look how you make your mother feeling when you act that way, because when you think about children's behavior, an upset state is usually a state. Most of us adults resist in children. We resist it.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: So when you resist it's number one gonna persist. But aside from that. your first sense is to try to control it.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and so to control it. Traditionally, we've been using punitive approaches to discipline which says I can control you.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and the the conscious discipline perspective is.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I can't control you. The only person I can make changes myself. The only person I can control is my own response to my child's upset

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Ryann Watkin: right? So for those of us who might not be familiar with conscious discipline in a nutshell. What's the foundation of it? What is it for? Who is it For

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: it's for everyone but the difference. But it's a social emotional learning program. We Dr. Bailey Doesn't really like to refer to it as a program in my I myself. It's really more a way of being because the difference between conscious discipline and most other social emotional learning programs

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is that it starts with the adult first.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: So discipline essentially isn't something we do to children.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Discipline is something that we help them to develop in themselves.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and that's a very different perspective. Because if i'm going to help somebody manage their emotional state

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and have them take total responsibility for it. I have to be in a space with that person, whether it's a spouse or a child, or any one. He anyone that you're within a moment.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I have to be willing to be open and see what's going on for that person versus trying to defend myself

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and the the the difference also with conscious of plan, is that all of it comes interestingly enough

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: from understanding a brain model of how we actually develop regulation, and how children develop regulation.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: And we know that the traditional responses that we have that are controlling

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: What that does to children? Is it stops the actual integration of self-regulation.

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self-regulation doesn't actually wire be completely wired up in your brain to be accessed immediately until you're 25. So that's a big deal.

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Ryann Watkin: That's a huge deal. I mean, we are constantly remind ourselves that don't we, as apparently because when a 2 year old is upset and a 4 year old is upset, and we think that they should be responding like an adult.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: or acting better than we are in the moment we expect them to act better than we are do. That's just crazy.

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Ryann Watkin: Right? So it's not something that we even do. It's something that we are. Is that a a proper way to think about it?

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I would say so. And that's a process, and it's

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: because changing yourself and change your response. The basic thing I tell the parents is your response has an impact on your child. It has an impact on anybody. You walk in a room.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and your behavior, your thoughts, how you're responding to your thoughts, thoughts, and your your actions and your feelings are all going to dictate

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: an energy to the person that's receiving you.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Does that make sense? And so, if that energy

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: is resistant. then you're going to be defending.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: you're going down to the lower centers of your brain for response versus the higher, more intellectual and problem-solving parts of your brain.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: And so then you you walk out, saying, I can't handle this person.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and I don't want this person to be my friend anymore, or this child's going to go to their room, and until they can figure it out.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I am not going to tolerate their behavior.

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Ryann Watkin: That makes sense. Yeah, I want Yup, it's a big deal in order for this to work for you. It starts with you. It starts with your responses because they have an impact on how your child's going to respond.

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Ryann Watkin: and I think that's both the good news and the bad news. Yeah, I it's really tricky to unravel a lot of the things that we've been living with for decades.

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Ryann Watkin: Personally, I just turned 40, and I think that my work really started at 30. So I've been a decade in so far, and i'm like man. This is not for the the faint of heart. This is not for the weary, but i'm here for it. It's a it's a journey i'm here for it, though

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, the decades are interesting because I think 40 is a real, is a is a the third major developmental stage in your life. When you are focused on

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: who you really are, and who you want to be, and what your life is. You do a lot of self evaluation, so pretty egocentric stage, but not in a bad way. It it's in like. Why am I here?

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: That question comes: what what is my real purpose? I've been proving myself and making the money, and I've got the children. And now what

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: it kind of what happened.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: And so that's a third stage. The other 2 stages are 2 year olds

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and teams.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and those are huge stages for self actualization.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: So your children are going to be defined in those stages. They're required to be defiant in those stages. and so I always see good leaders. you know, as in my book and Blue Star Grit.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: you know I raised an exceptional leader, but his leadership was chosen by himself. By the way, I guided him versus tried to control him

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Ryann Watkin: right. And I want to go back to, if we can, the wooden spoon moment that you talk about in your book, because I think that's a pivotal moment where we, as parents, and we may have many of them right where we have a choice. Do we act like a lunatic, or scream, or shout, or do we

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Ryann Watkin: take the higher path and take a step back, or take the elevator up, or whatever, and choose differently. So take us back to the wooden spoon moment. And what clicked for you? How did you know like this is it? I'm done

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: well that I was mostly unconscious, like I saw I would have you ever watched yourself act stupid right? So it was a moment I was watching myself. Act stupid. I was resisting myself, but I couldn't help myself, and i'm sure I was imitating some of what my parents did.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: but I Bart was turning on. Oh, he's 2, and he's very. He was very precocious, I mean extremely precocious.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and and also sort of street smart, you know he just would always wiggle and wiggle through things, and he always had the upper hand. It felt like that all the time as a single parent.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and it was just one of those days I came home so my, because I was stressed

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I didn't have the resilience in that moment when you're really stressed. It's hard to be resilient and calm yourself. And he was turning this lamp on and off and on and off, and I and I took everything off the tables, but I couldn't take the lamps off the tables, and he was just.

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He was trying to get my attention. He was trying to connect with me, but at the time I didn't see it that way

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I was stressed, and I thought he's doing this to me again. I have had it, and so there I go, watching myself like stupid march into the kitchen. I grab the wooden spoon. I go out there. I get 2 2 inches from his face, and I say to him, if you don't stop.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: this is gonna go on your bottom.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: you know, and in my most out of control moment.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and I was scared in the moment I really was. I was scared because I was afraid I was going to use it.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: That was was scary for me being the professional that I am working in a psychiatric center, I should have known better.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: So what does he do? In response to that he pulls his pants down, turns around it goes, Save me money! Spank me!

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: He's taunting me. and in that moment

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I that was epiphany for me, because I I knew at that moment

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I was lost, completely control I had lost, and I didn't know how to get it back. I just did not know how to get it back, and his whole life went through my just. My face must have turned ashen.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and I stopped. I paused. I I I was watching the film of his life go in front of me and it. He was a serial killer. By the time he was 16 I thought I don't have control any. He's totally controlling this house.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and the Epiphany came when I just passed. I just paused, and I sat there for a minute, and I just there's got to be more to this. There's got to be more. There has to be another way. There, there's got to be more to this.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and that was a moment that I said, maybe this is just not about him.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It just it wasn't just about him. I mean he was there, but it wasn't just about him, and I didn't know honestly what direction to go in. I didn't. It was just the epiphany that I knew there had to be a better way. I just didn't know what it was.

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Ryann Watkin: So the first step for so many things is just that awareness, and it sounds like in that wooden spoon moment you really became aware you saw yourself acting out of control. It scared you. You felt that fear. And you said, I don't want to feel this anymore. I have to take accountability. So

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Ryann Watkin: at what point did you find conscious discipline like? Where did you find that journey? How old was Bart? How old was Nick like, Where were you at in your journey when you finally started to really implement some of the powerful self actualization?

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, that didn't happen for a few years later, as you read my as as you read Bart's Blue Star, you'll just many stories where I completely lose it, and i'm getting so tired and frustrated with myself right it wasn't until I got divorced and moved to Florida and with my new husband jack

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: current husband, who's 33 years we've been married.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and we came to Florida, and Bart was 6. Nick was 8 and 2 step children, John 10, and Christy was 15, and when we came Here

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: was when I was approached by somebody who was doing another program called Redirecting Children's behavior, and she asked me if I guinea pig her class, and so I did, and that was the beginning of it like Yes, see.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: it's not just him. It's me, too. And so I knew

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: that it was going to be a journey.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and it was then that I took the the bull by the horns and said, okay, Jenny, if you're if you're really going to do this. You've got to start teaching it yourself. I did not meet Becky until

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Bart, I think, was 14.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Wow, yeah, I didn't start conscious this

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: technically conscious discipline. But I have been doing a lot of work in relationship with what the Epiphany was was about my relationship, and it was about my relationship in this moment in that wooden spoon moment here was wicked which of the West face for a 2 year old, looking at him.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and he must have been so frightened, and how Bart dealt with fear was. He just made a game out of it? That's what he did. He was like. Come on. and I didn't know any of that then, and it but it wasn't until

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I actually learned about all that that I go. Oh, that's what was going on.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: you know that's what was happening for me. So he didn't get like

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: conscious discipline until he was like 14. But he got a lot of other redirecting children's behavior relationship based family meetings. more of the

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: connection piece moving from control to connection. And that's what that. What? That's what we'll start. The the Blue Star Grid is all about, is moving my

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: stuckness and entrapment and control, and freeing myself from that

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: to connection, and in learning how to connect more with him. I was connecting more with myself.

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Ryann Watkin: Yeah. throughout the book. I really felt like I got to know you, of course, so much, and Bart so much, and I just

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Ryann Watkin: he's just he's so funny, and what? And you're so funny! And one of the stories that I just was laughing out loud was the story about George. Will you tell us about George?

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Yeah, that was another time when he was small now as a single parent, and if anybody is listening as a single parent.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: You, and only you know how lonely that can be as a parent.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It's not a and I. There are many also people out there who's partners or spouses? You know they they travel a lot, so that feels like that You're alone. There's a good side of it. The good side of it is that you don't have to negotiate decisions about how you're going to discipline your children.

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You do it. You're consistent. You're there. The bad news is, you never get a break.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: never!

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: And so I was working with preschool, really challenging, emotionally challenging the most emotionally and physically of you know, emotional abuse and physical abuse, the most challenged 3 and 4 year olds in this county in upstate New York on this interdisciplinary team. So if anybody should have known

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: how to manage children at the time the traditional approaches I was using. It was me.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: you know. I'm the one that should have

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: But I come home after a day of that work, and I would be here would be preschoolers in my face, and I was like, Can I just get a break.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It was

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: so hard for me I just wanted 10 min. I just wanted them to be quiet, shut up, be quiet, so I could get 10 min to myself.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and so there was. One day I came home, and it was one of those

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: moments. Mommy, mommy, mommy, can we watch Grant Gremlin's mommy. Can we go to be's, mommy? Can I have a cookie? I mean mommy, 90 money is. I'm trying to get in the door with a couple of bags of groceries in there, mommy 99, and I just lost it, you know it was one of those moments, and I said, that's it.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: That is it. I am not your mother anymore. From now on in I'm George, that's me, George and I stomped up the stairs.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: I went into my bedroom. I slammed the door. I didn't even close the door. I slammed it.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It was a good no, not your mother any more kind of thing. Not realizing the impact it was having on them.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: And so i'm just crying in my room. I'm just like so depleted and so victim and and I hear this pitter pattern up the stairs, and here's Nick Nick, the good boy, you know he's my first born, and he's going. Mommy.

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mommy, you have to be my mommy. You have to be me. You can not be my mommy. You gotta be my mommy, and he's like

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Ryann Watkin: So you say, in your book the struggle of raising a defiant child becomes personal growth. When we recognize that examining the life of a child we birthed and raised affords us the opportunity to examine our own life, and with any luck heal our own wounds. Thus our children become our therapists.

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Ryann Watkin: out of so many things. One thing that this book was about for me was healing intergenerational trauma. You took us on this marvelous journey about your mother's childhood and her struggles that she faced, and your childhood and

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: that's why so much of this program, which is different. It's. It's about paying it forward. It's about offering to others what you want to experience in yourself, and when you offer it to other people.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, you're really spunky in the book, Jenny. I mean you. You've got some spunk. So I I believe that. Oh, my yeah, yeah, there is fun from the from the first few words. It's funky. But

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: All of that is inner speech that, says I, don't have control. I'm not in charge of my choices.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: correct. So somebody wrote to me today. I'm reading your book, and oh, my gosh! You went through so much, so much pain, and I feel your pain. And I said, I want you to feel inspired, not pain, I said, because I was victimized. There's no question

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Ryann Watkin: This is an invitation for us to kind of train ourselves to not be jumping into the story to not feel your pain, to not feel our kids pain, but to realize that we are projecting our own insecurities, fear, grief and sadness onto somebody else or onto a story.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: So can you break that down for us a little bit? Because I think this is so relevant in every relationship we have in our in our lives.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, I know exactly what that's like. You know what happened to me right, or I can't imagine, because I know I couldn't handle that right. So that's more about me, the person.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Then there were the people who would say, do the immature sympathy, so it the immature sympathy would be. Let me tell you about my story, because i'm trying to connect with you. That's the intention i'm trying to connect with you. But that doesn't really help the person who's feeling the real pain.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: your response has a huge impact, and if your energy sees the best in a child in any moment, no matter what they've done, if you see the best it doesn't mean they get away with anything, and that there's not limits or any of that. But if you see them

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: a boundary says this is what's going to happen, and I expect you. I expect that this is going to happen from you, and and kids need that for safety to know boundaries. They have to know boundaries, boundaries help us to to make choices about who we want to be.

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Ryann Watkin: I think it's important for us to learn how to tap into our authoritative voice, our firm, loving, gentle voice. We're not trigger, we're not angry. We're not judging. We're not controlling. We're saying.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and I love you, and this might be hard for you. But this is still the limit, right. It's in your tone. A lot of it's in your tone of voice. So it's not. It's just kind of a matter of fact.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It's sunny outside. There's a fan above my head. I have a rug on the floor. It's time to go to bed.

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Ryann Watkin: guys, you know i'm not quite sure if i'm gonna keep it. So I you know I think the best thing is, if you just like, put all this stuff over there. No, they didn't put all this stuff over there. They just kept playing with it. One of them is on top of the table now, the coffee table stepping into the big box. And so I I went like, okay, time to set a boundary.

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Ryann Watkin: Okay, you know. And so when you're in this place in your mind and you're not present, I think, for me it comes down to presence. So you know, we think of a we can think of our own thing like, what is it for you? For me? It's like really presence

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Ryann Watkin: connection you've mentioned so many times like, you know, leading with something that will, you know, Trigger, you to say like, oh, okay, here it's time for me to be assertive right now, and you know, I must say I've been practicing this work conscious discipline and you know.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: They're amazing. They're so good, and you're so vulnerable and sharing like what we all are thinking and feeling guilty about. I mean, Mom, guilt is a real thing. I mean, it's a real thing. It's a real thing. It's also the cancer. It's what'll kill you. Yeah.

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Ryann Watkin: right? Right? So I think the invitation here as we start to wrap up the invitation is really like. What's your wooden spoon moment like? What's your moment

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Ryann Watkin: to become aware that you want to do things a little bit differently, and then getting the support to do that, there are so many free resources out there. Get this book! Oh, my gosh! This is such a journey. Where can we get your book? Actually, Jenny.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: you can get it on Amazon Apple books and Barnes and noble it's pre order right at the moment it's gonna be May second, it will be launched, but it's Blue Star Grit.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: A mother's journey of triumph and tragedy raising a defiant child into an exceptional leader.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It's a live workshop, and it's it's called from Defiance to Compliance

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: It's gonna be a zoom it's gonna be a zoom. Oh, amazing, okay, great. I'll make sure to get all those links. I You know I have them somewhere, and i'll put them in the show notes that way people can join.

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Ryann Watkin: Yeah, it's just been a tremendous journey to read this book. As this episode heirs, the book will be released the next day. So if you're listening to this on the day, and er the book comes out tomorrow, so we'll put that link in the show notes, too, so you can grab it

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if you're really excited. Pre. Order it today. If not, you can get it regular tomorrow. Thank you so much, Jenny, for all that you do for who you are for sharing your story. I know it's going to help so many people. It certainly has provided me just this

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Ryann Watkin: discomfort and inspiration and empowerment really to like you said so i'm going to ask you the 3 questions that I ask everybody at the end of my interviews. What's bringing you joy today?

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: The weather I love being out in nature. So when it's this beautiful, it's not too hot. It's just gorgeous.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: and you'll still get forever. Just so you know it. Just there's more acceptance and less judgment. That's what happens. You you'll keep doing it. It's just more acceptance, less judgment.

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Ryann Watkin: Well, we've got that to look forward to, then, folks, I mean, I think that's a great point. Thank you so much for sharing everything that you've shared with us today. Jenny, you're just an amazing human.

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ginnyluther@gmail.com: Well, thank you for having me on the show. I feel very honored, and i'm wishing you well.

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